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The emotional road to my first PNH treatment

When I was diagnosed with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH), a rare blood disorder, I was overwhelmed by all the information that was thrown at me. I had to process multiple questions: What exactly is PNH? How do I explain it to others? What does this mean for my…

I shouldn’t let my PNH diagnosis define me — or should I?

A common phrase I keep seeing when it comes to living with a rare disease is “don’t let the disease define you.” But what if I did let my paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) diagnosis define me? After all, I’m stronger, kinder, more flexible, and a lot tougher after living…

Why I didn’t research PNH online after my diagnosis

Being diagnosed with an illness can result in a plethora of emotions. We may feel vulnerable, hurt, confused, sad, raw, or scared. With tensions high, it can be hard to protect our mental health while gathering information about the disease. After I was diagnosed with aplastic anemia and…

News flash: Not every doctor knows what a PNH diagnosis means

My view of doctors and their expertise has greatly shifted through my years of living with a rare disease. At one time I held the weight of their knowledge, degrees, and experience to be the end-all-be-all because they were professionals when it came to anything related to medicine. I wouldn’t…

Why I admire my now beautifully flawed body

The other day, as I was standing in front of my bathroom mirror, I began to pay attention to my scars. They’ve been on my body for so long that they’ve become a part of me. Many days, as I get ready, I don’t even notice my scars as something…

Spoiler alert: That PNH diagnosis wasn’t a dream

Going to the doctor for a wellness check or discussions about my health was unheard of during the first 24 years of my life. My needle phobia played mind games on me, tricking me into believing that the only reason for invasive blood draws, vaccines, and IVs was to cause…