Dark to Hopeful - a Column by Shaquilla Gordon

When the storm clears: A day in my life without PNH symptoms

Some days I wake up and forget for a few golden seconds that I have paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH). My eyes flutter open, and there’s no tightness in my chest, no pounding in my head, no crushing fatigue pulling me back into the mattress. There’s just morning light, the…

What does PNH brain fog feel like?

Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) for nearly eight years has shaped how I show up in every part of my life. It’s a quiet battle, mostly invisible to the outside world, but inside, it’s a constant balancing act. One of the most difficult and misunderstood symptoms I…

Speaking up: The power of self-advocacy with PNH

When I was diagnosed with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) in 2017, I felt powerless. I had no control over what was happening to my body and found myself at the mercy of doctors and medical jargon I barely understood. At first, too overwhelmed to push for my own needs,…

How my PNH diagnosis affected my mental health

When I was diagnosed with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) in May 2017, I thought the biggest battle I would face was the physical one. I was wrong. While the fatigue, blood clots, and pain were undeniably difficult, nothing could’ve prepared me for the mental and emotional toll this rare…