Dark to Hopeful - a Column by Shaquilla Gordon

Back to school with PNH: Pursuing a goal I’d put on hold

Before I got sick, college was part of my plan. It wasn’t just a dream; it was a goal I was actively working toward. Then came my diagnosis of paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH), and suddenly everything paused. Life turned into blood tests, infusions, and learning to survive…

Finding the right PNH treatment isn’t a one-time decision

Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) has taught me that treatment isn’t one-size-fits-all. It’s a journey, not a destination. When I was diagnosed in May 2017, I was overwhelmed. There were medical terms flying over my head, treatment options that sounded complicated, and an avalanche of fear…

To travel with a chronic illness, pack caution and carry courage

Travel has always fed my soul. There’s something magical about exploring a new city, tasting different foods, or just watching the sunrise from someplace unfamiliar. But since I was diagnosed with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) in 2017, traveling has taken on a whole new meaning — it’s no longer…

The power of shared decision-making in patient care

Paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) is more than just a tongue twister; it’s a rare, chronic blood disorder that alters every aspect of life. When I was diagnosed with it in 2017, I quickly realized I wouldn’t just be on a physical journey, but also an emotional and informational…

Feeding my fight: How I eat to live well with PNH

When I was diagnosed with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) in 2017, food was the last thing on my mind. I was overwhelmed by appointments, blood work, and adjusting to my “new normal.” But over time, I realized that what I put into my body played a huge role in…

When the storm clears: A day in my life without PNH symptoms

Some days I wake up and forget for a few golden seconds that I have paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH). My eyes flutter open, and there’s no tightness in my chest, no pounding in my head, no crushing fatigue pulling me back into the mattress. There’s just morning light, the…

What does PNH brain fog feel like?

Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) for nearly eight years has shaped how I show up in every part of my life. It’s a quiet battle, mostly invisible to the outside world, but inside, it’s a constant balancing act. One of the most difficult and misunderstood symptoms I…