Dark to Hopeful - a Column by Shaquilla Gordon

Finding the strength to rise again after a scary night in the ER

Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) has taught me many things, including patience, resilience, awareness of my own body and many symptoms, and an appreciation for every stretch of calm between the storms. But every now and then, something reminds me that no matter how strong I’ve…

I give thanks to my PNH support system, my family, my fortress

As the holidays approach, I feel an especially deep pull toward gratitude. Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) has taught me many things — resilience, patience, courage — but nothing has been more powerful than the lesson of love. Not the easy, everyday kind, but the kind that shows…

Living with the fear of aplastic anemia while managing PNH

When you live with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH), you learn early on that no two days are ever the same. Some days, I wake up with energy and hope. Other days, I’m reminded that this rare disease is unpredictable — it can shift and change without warning. One of…

Facing the ‘what-ifs’ of PNH complications

Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) isn’t just about managing what’s happening today; it’s also about facing what could happen tomorrow. As much as I try to live in the moment, I’d be lying if I said the potential complications of PNH don’t cross my mind. The truth is,…

Finding the right doctor to partner with in my PNH care

Living with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) since 2017 has taught me that finding the right physician is as important as the treatment itself. Because PNH is rare, I need a doctor who is more than a medical expert — they must also be a partner in this…

We shouldn’t have to battle with insurance to access PNH care

When I was diagnosed with paroxysmal nocturnal hemoglobinuria (PNH) in 2017, I braced myself for fatigue, transfusions, brain fog, and regular blood work. What I didn’t expect was how much energy I’d spend fighting a second battle — one with my health insurance company. Living with a rare disease…